tdy was a tough day . x(

early in the morning woke up at 7 am . chionged to school . still late . kns . =.=

den . chinese cher caught me talking to jiahui n she ask me to stand . wads her prob .

pe sucks lar . i run until i get stiches n headache . n ended up not even passing . last time my timing was even better than this one . aiyo .. suck lar .

lifelit was better . did a 26-word long work . easy . (: n mdn ng let us off for early recess cos our recess break will be cut due to the exam . thanks mdn ng . xD

homec . its quite easy actually . i figured out tt test which u spent lesser time revising , it turns out easier . (:
not lyk science . i spent one whole afternoon n one whole night revising . but wht did i get ? a paper which was quite hard and didnt test on the things i am desperately trying to understand n memorise . waste my time lar . stupid mrs toh set paper until liddat . kns kns kns .

after school slacked around n went for dc . i was late maah . haiish . stupid school has stupid rules . watever . in the middle of the dc went to see ms lim for my punishment . sian . have to sort out stuff lyk 1a1's confidential record . wow . confidential wor . mmm . did for lyk 30 to 45 mins . chionged back to finish my dc .

after tt went to slack in the canteen with minhui , charmaine , leon n jacob . waah . those 2 boys made me laid a bad point on boys . =X but nt all boys lar .

okay tt was my tough day . very tired now . go watch css2 ler . bye .


i really lyk u a lot .
n i really want u to do a simple thing for me .
its only easy as lifting up ur fingers .
u end up doin it to other ppl instead .
i admit i xian mu them .
but wad cn i do .
bing jing ni he ta men bi jiao shou .
im useless .
so useless .

You Are 49% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows. You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately. If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important. You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

hmms . i guess so .

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

im happy . yay . (:

Your Depression Level: 56%

You seem to have mild depression. A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment. If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

oh well . same as the test i did earlier .

Your Life is 49% Off Track

Right now, you're taking things one day at a time. Some things are going well, but you can't help but wonder if you're getting the most out of life. It's time for you to slow down and reflect a little. You can change your life - but it's up to you!

oh well . cant change it .

Your Brain is 73% Female, 27% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

wow . (: at least im more female .

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

yes ! im a good girl . :DD

You Are 8% Spoiled

You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have. Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.

wow ! im so NOT spoiled . xDD

DEPRESSED TEST .

[ ]You are doing things much slower than usual.
- no . a bit bahs . but not totally .
[ ]You are bothered by things that usually don't bother you.
- i get bothered by the usual things .
[x]You have had periods of feeling low that last for at least several hours.
- yeah . its hard to describe .
[x]You've had trouble concentrating.
- yes . when im thinking during lessons . i dun get anything the cher says .
[x]Things that used to be interesting to you are no longer interesting.
- yar . i totally dun enjoy the things i use to enjoy .
Total So Far: 3

[ ]Your energy level has been low.
- not really .
[ ]Your future has seemed hopeless.
- no . im still striving . (:
[ ]You have been preoccupied with death,dying, or suicide.
- nope . i dun really think until dere lar .
[x]You feel like you've lost some confidence.
- yes . i think so .
[x]You are easily irritated.
- yeah .
Total so Far: 2

[x]You are afraid that something bad is going to happen to you.
- everytime .
[ ]You've been sleeping a lot more or less than usual.
- erm . no . usually sleep at the same time .
[ ]You have lost or gained five pounds.
- O.o not sure .
[x]It is difficult for you to make decisions.
- almost everytime actually .
[x]You feel like no one likes you anymore.
- yeahh .
Total so Far: 4

[x]You have aches or pains that can't be explained.
- heart pains lors .
[ ]You have been avoiding your friends.
- no . y shld i do tt ?
[ ]You feel like you have nothing to live for.
- i still live for some things .
[ ]Nothing seems important to you.
- he is still important .
[ ]It takes a lot of effort to do the most simple of tasks.
- not really ..
Total so Far: 1

[x]You feel sad or blue.
- yes . at times .
[x]You feel like a failure.
- yes . in life . in studies . in love .
[ ]You feel more dead than alive.
- dun think so .
[x]You feel trapped in your life.
- YAH . by parents .
[x]You feel depressed, even if something good happens.
- some times .
Total so Far: 4

Times your total by 4
14 x 4 = 56 %

“I am 56% Depressed “

i guess so .

happy day (:
these few days my luck has been quite good . :D

yesterday was talking about the numbers for the class tee . its gonna be a jersey . white+orange . wow . nice nice . xD must choose wad number u wanted . i think index number is better lors . lol ! I GOT NUMBER 6 ! yay yay . :DDD mengchen almost take my number sia . luckily i won the scissors paper stone thingy . xD i love number 6 . n im glad tt my index number was 6 . :DD but i kinda lyk over reacted when i won . :DD happy mahs .

hmms . the exams r okay .
geog cn pass . but i did too slow n last 2 questions never really finish . crap . =.=
eng is okay . but im starting to think i write too much ler . i wrote 463 words . =X ltr kena penalized .
i sure fail maths this time round . =.= the class test is bloody hard n my project cant save it cos of the bad presentation . ): damn it .
chinese never do finish laaah . everytime never do finish der ! kns . =/ chiong lyk hell oso cnt finish . 15 marks gone n byebye to higher chinese . i doubt i'd even get a b3 . =.=

tdy in school as per normal .
science chow touched on chap 9 electricity n have wad , the invisible hand n its disciples . something lyk tt . its a bit lame lar . dun understand anyway .

homec was funny cn . don n buanheng kip making me laugh lyk crazy . tdy baked the banana+walnut cake . quite nice lar actually . i lyk it . (: oh yeah . don's cake didnt chao ta again . oh well . he's just lucky . =X n i have to admit . he n zhihui the cake actually look nice . lol . n don . dun self praise lar . dun copy wad i say oso hor . :D

yeah . after chinese exam had drama . made ideas on trinity . fun . went home n here i am . (:

i feel so vulgaric right now . im just controlling . =.=


my darn parents confiscated my fone . just becuase my fone bill is $60+ lar . make until so big deal liddat . tear the fone bill n shouted at me . pls lar . some more take my fone den they go out tt time oso bring with them cn . wtf lar . have to do until liddat arhs . den dun care me n dun speak to me these few days . i just attitude them lar . who cares . at least my life is quietier . no more rants n screams at my ear anymor . n the hp . big deal . i just have to live a few weeks or days without my fone . maybe teach me how to not depend on my fone so much . den when i get it back . maybe i cn really save some fone bills . (: i dun give a damn anymor .

OH YEAH . I DECLARE .
SEC 2E3 IS THE LEVEL CHAMPION FOR DEBATING .

yay . claps claps claps !
where r the congrats . xDD
n farah is the best speaker in our class . yay . claps again ! :DD


joel is the best speaker from 2e2 . but his speech n rebutting is so damn kua zhang . O.o he said something about wad meeting with the president ..? n the president will let them go becos its a life n death matter . blahs . O.o woahh . no wonder tio best speaker . =.=

oh yahs . errrms . it was the gurls vs the boys ! xD cos our grp arjunan dunno go whr . =.= n so nid 3 vs 3 . so they kicked merlyn . (: so . GIRL POWER . erms . opposition . 2e2 . started first . darren say his speech until damn funny cn ! xDD laugh lyk siao laahs . i was desperately trying to get down his points . but he surprisingly spoke so soft . den halfway looking at the speech tt time say . "hu wrote this ?" omy . =.= den my turn . arjunan bu jian . so im 1st speaker . =X omg . i dunno wad to rebutt n stand dere lyk an idiot cn . so i restarted . n thankfully . thought of some points to say . omg . den aaron's turn . stupid darren kip putting the ELMO paper in front of his eyes n made me laughed lyk crazy . =.= make me cannot serious lar . wth . den was the floor 's turn to talk . only jiahui was the floor . i was lyk . " let the floor talk first ." den everyone laughed lyk siao . xD LOL . so talk . talk until dialect become dialoge or sth . dunno hw spell lar . nursing home became institution . aged sick become old folks . oh well . so jiajia prefered the nursing home . yay . xD den phill's turn . she was cool . xD "wad century is it this already ." LOL . i rite der leh . dun play play . :DD den action joel's turn . yeah . den when rahmat was summing up the results we were debating again . debate until computer games n maplestory . xD lol . rahmat said the results . say we were not serious n keep laughing . of course . darren's stupid elmo mah . he dumb dumb nv c . lol . still blame us . =.= so the winning team goes to 2e3 ! :DD n we screamed lyk mad .


okays . drama tdy was fun . learnt stage combats . x) fun fun fun . i n jiamin kip laughing lyk siao . meijia came in halfway . hmms . went for blood test . hope she is alright . pull okays meijia ? jiayou ! (:


tmr geog ct + english ct + maths test . omy . so many tests in one day . heckk . go study le lars . sian . but lyked i promised yiquan mummy . i will study hard . xD




pics .





me . farah . n phill . debating . xD
the gurls . (:











joel . aaron . n darren .
+ rahmat . xD

the boys . (:

phews . just finished setting up the song lyrics . put the songs of da first 4 songs only . maybe the rest will be on another day . (: oh yah . if the song cnt play . just enable the track cn ler . (:

pooped out now . used a whole afternoon of computer . better go study for common test ler bahs . everyone must jiayou for ct wor ! get top 10 ars . im aiming for top 10 also bahs . lol .

so much things happened tdy . =.= sian lars . dun feel lyk mian dui them now . just wanna rest .

mms . looked my the calendar recently n found out tt my birthday is coming . wows . FINALLY . xD waited almost one year liao leh . yay (: gimme me presents okay . xDD

IMMATURE TEST .

You have eaten fish food. [ ]
- ewwww . no way sia .
You have eaten dog food. [ ]
-yukk . no way too .
You have eaten cat food. [ ]
- bleahh . =.=
You have run into a glass door. [ ]
- errrrmmms . no .
You have eaten an ant. [ ]
- absolutely . NOT .
You have eaten grass. [ ]
- not in my memory .
You have licked a tree. [ ]
- y would i do tt . =.=
You have polka dotted underwear. [ ]
- ? O.o
You have pink underwear. [ ]
- =.=
You had contests with your friends to see who can create the nastiest burp. [ ]
- not me . boys mayb . =X
You have screamed a random word in public. [x]
- yeah . i think so .
You wave at people you don't know. [x]
- :DD some times .
You have flushed the toilet because you were bored. [ ]
- nt so lame .
You have slapped yourself out of boredom. [ ]
- ouchh ?
You sing the "FUN" song. [ ]
- wads a FUN song anyway ? =.=
You hold conversations with a pillow, blanket, stuffed animal etc. [ ]
- siao ar .
You dream of lamas coming out of peoples' butts. [ ]
- ? wads lamas . O.o
You think people who eat brains are cool. [ ]
- sick cn .
You have/sing karaoke even though you know you're horrible. [x]
- lol . hu cares . xDD sing to myself lors .
You know how to spell "supercallafragalisticespialadosious" by heart. :D:D:D [ ]
- =.= no .
You make up your own words and use them with people who have no clue what they mean. [x]
- yeah ! xDD
You have striped socks and you have worn them so people can see them. [ ]
- i dun have striped socks . =/
You have hugged a random person. [ ]
- NO . =.=
You have ran up and down the stairs cuz u were bored. [ ]
- no larrr .
You have created a puppet show with your socks out of boredom. [ ]
- maybe when i was young .
You have imagined people saying "bla" and blowing up. [ ]
- O.o ? nv came into my mind .
You are addicted to the Anamaniacs theme song. [ ]
- wad the hell is anamaniacs . =.=
You are addicted to "The Pinky andthe Brain" theme song. [ ]
- wads tt .. =.=
You have stared at your ceiling forover 10 minutes. [x]
- yeahh . think bout things mah . very immature meh ?
You have talked to yourself. [x]
- yeahhh . xDDD some times . when im alone .
You have conversations with your imaginary friends.
- no . way too crazy .

Multiply your answers by the multiple of 3
and repost this as, 'I'm ________%Immature.

LOL ! im 18% immature . which means . im nt so immature . xD


mm . nowadays so sian . kip doin tests lyk this .
hope u ppl would understand mie better .
cos i just kip having feelings tt ppl dun understand me at all .

common tests start next wednesday .
next wednesday liao sia . still haven study yet . come back from camp . so tired n muscle cramps everywhere . where gt xin qing to study . the school ah . haiis . wan get top 10 oso hard liaos lar .
now oso everytime think think think . y cnt my thoughts stop a while n gimme a break . ppl ask me nt to think . but wad cn i do ? the thoughts kept coming by themselves . i cnt stop em . this camp oso . the first time when im in a camp . im bothered by these bloody thoughts . wth .

i nid a peace of mind .

MENTAL AGE TEST .

[x]I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[x] I can cook for myself.
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] My parents have better things to say than my friends.
[ ] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[ ] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week.
[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in Chinese.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.
[ ] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water my plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.
[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.
[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ]I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

count all the crosses & thats your mental age.
so, WHAT'S YOUR MENTAL AGE? [:

LOL . mine is 15 . 2 ages above my age sia .
IM MATURE . xDD

嘻唰唰 (:

嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰 woo woo
嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰
嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰 woo woo
嘻唰唰 嘻唰唰 123 go

冷啊冷 疼啊疼 哼啊哼 我的心哦
等啊等 梦啊梦 疯啊疯 请你

拿了我的给我送回来
吃了我的给我吐出来
闪闪红星里面的记载
变成此时对白
欠了我的给我补回来
偷了我的给我交出来
你我好像划拳般恋爱
每次都是猜

伤啊伤 晃啊晃 装啊装 多可惜哦
想啊想 藏啊藏 嚷啊嚷 请你

唉 天天猜 唉 夜夜呆
唉 时时怪 唉 已不再

yay . lurbb this song . xD

another test ~

1. How are you feeling today?
- a lil moody .

2. Where were you before this?
- maple ?

3. The funniest thing that has happened today?
- nah . nothing happened .

4. The thing that has taken aback recently ?
- ? nothing .

5. Is there anything bothering youright now?
- the camp memories . (:

6. Is there anything you really want now?
- time to go back . to the camp times . (:

7. When was the last time you laughed?
- yesterday .

8. When was the last time you cried?
- yesterday ? for daddy n mummy . =/

9. What are you most looking forward to?
- dere is nothing for me to look forward to .

10. What would happen in four months time?
- year end streaming . 2e3 will be scattered . ):

11. Whom is the one you really loved?
- him .

12. Is there anyone that has really touched your heart in a really special way?
- him . friends .

13. What would you do in an hour's time?
- eat my dinner .

14. Who is the ONE that is always on your mind?
- him . he is always in my thoughts .

15. Is there anyone on your mind negatively?
- mm . not sure .

16. What are you listening to right now?
- xi shua shua ! xD love tt song since camp .

17. Who was the last one that you have talked on MSN?
- nobody .

18. What was the last thing you did before this?
- playing maple ..?

19. What are you going to do after this?
- eat my dinner .

20. Rate this day, 1 being the worstand 10 being the best.
- 4 bahs . still thinking .

hiies ! was back from camp .
had a damn lot of fun . i think i made the full of it . (:

1st day .

did some icebreaker games at school first .. den went to jalan bantera camp . spilt up into 2 grps . was in grp 9 ! n mojo daddy was my instructor ! yay ! xDD he very funny lar he . go dere .. i think some ppl did flying fox . i actually wan go up .. den yiquan mummy say no time ler . so didnt do . suay lar . primary sch tt time oso miss flying fox . now oso miss . fated . :( suan ler . den prepared for the campfire thingy . did sway .. lol . partner was meng chen sia . so talllll . O.O hahas . but the dance steps very nice . xD had fun doin it . at night had the kidnapping thingy . wow . shiok sehh . isaac kena kidnapped . xD we did stations n activities to pass lor . its lyk amazing race liddat . FUN ~ its oso lyk drama der lor . but at camp more fun cos at night den very dark . xD fun .

2nd day .

waked up damn early . lyk 5.10 bahs . wow . O.o first time in camp i wake up so early . every time camp slp lyk crazy . xD morning supposed to do high elements der . lyk damn fun cn . stupid lightning sent us back to the shelter . =.= so end up in this camp . nv even do a high element . at least some ppl gt do abseiling . i nv even do . waaah . x( after lunch went kayaking . fun fun fun ! xD but i scared of seawater . so . u noe lar . n i accidently hit don's ear n let go of the boat . psps . sry ahs . x( after tt had the campfire . i love the camp fire most . WOW . HIGH . xDDD dance n scream n shout until no energy n no voice . =X mojo daddy said he had never seen one class cn be so enthu . xD yay ! i love the tarzan n jane song . xD our class did the sway dance . nothing bad embarrasing happened . =X woot . e1 the dance very nice . xi shua shua . xi shua shua . xi shua shua . woo . woo . xi shua shua xi shua shua xi shua shua . yay . xD had some games interval in between . bh n shafiq first game . some best frends stuff . 2nd game . don went . wow . pro lars . lift up one leg very hard hor ? xD campfire ended .. everyone cried . i really zi bei im not the emotional type tt will cry . waah . ): felt a bit heartless . den mojo did a loong talk . xD very sad .

today .

hmms . did some area cleaning . we clean the campfire area . den had the prize giving for best female n male camper . no one from our class . dun sad ah kks . xD n the best grp goes to .... GROUP 9 !! yes yes yes ! xDD my grp sia . x) wooot ~ den went back the school . took pics on the bus .. see ppl cry at the school gate dere when daddy n mummy were leaving . n i cried a bit too . my nose went runny . ): zi bei again . went home by taxi with phill .

enjoyed this camp lyk hell . I LOVE MOJO DADDY N YIQUAN MUMMY ! i will miss u all damn lots sia . x( now i nid rest more . my body is aching all over .

pics .



















mie . jiamin . n yiquan MUMMY ! xDD

















mie . jiamin . n mojo DADDY . xDD

















mie n mojo daddy . xDD
(hu the hell put twist behind my head D:< )

So Yesterday .

You can change your life - if you wanna
You can change your clothes - if you wanna
If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat - cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back
At least not today, not today, not today 'cause

If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank you...
you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today 'cause

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today 'cause

love this song . although its a lil old .. still lyk it . (:

here's a quiz to noe me better .
got it from mandy's blog . hope she doesnt mind . xD
n i dunno y some questions r missing .

This quiz has 85 questions.
Here's whatyou're supposed to do....
and DON'T spoil the fun.
Copy this entire bulletin and paste it
onto a new bulletin that you will send.
Change all the answers so that theyapply to you.
PUT HOW LONG IT TOOK YOU TO DO THIS AS THE SUBJECT.

1. Start Time: 4.59 pm .
2. Name: goh cai qin .
3. Nickname: caicai . cq . xiia0feii . =.= fishball . =.=
4. Astrology sign: LEO ! xDD
5. Gender: female lar .
7. Hair color: black lor .
8. Eye color: brown ?
9. Height: 158 . im short . =.=
10. Favorite Most color: pink ? blue ?
11. Glasses: red front . black sides .
13. tattoos: O.o course not . temporary have . xD
14. Birthplace: mount elizabeth hospital in sinagpore .
15. Area code: ?
16. TRUEfriends: lynnette . aish . phill . huda . farah . jiamin . jiahui . minhui . fionn . n most of my class gurls n drama mates . xDD i love them .

&HAVE YOU EVER-
17. cut your own hair? : yuuup . a lil only .
18. Done something in the past regret?: of course . so many . =.=
19. Have you ever met someone you were not supposed to? : yahs ...
21. Skipped school? : no unless im sick . =X
22. Bungee jumped? : not really . but i wanna try ! xDD
24. Punched someone? : ? nahh . im kind to ppl . xD
25. Cheated on someone? : NEVER n EVER .
26. Been arrested? : O.o no .
27. Broken into someones house?: y shld i do tt . =.=
28. Been to a funeral? : think so .. when i was really young .
32. Used a lighter? : yah . not to smoke . i HATE smoke . x( but to play . xDD

YOUR FAVOURITE-
34. Season: winter ! but sadly . sg dun have .
36. Ice cream flavour: choc chips . xD
37. School subject(s): ..? music . homec ! xDD
38. Candy: ..? noramally i eat most of em .
39. Breakfast: macs breakfast ? xD
40. Juice: watermelon/apple juice ? LOL . xD
41. Book(s): i dunnoe . nice den i read lor .
42. Movie(s): HARRY POTTERS MOVIES . ((:
43. Song(s): wow . so many sia . but mainly chinese songs . i lyk slow songs better . xD
50. Letter(s): ..? C n Q ?? xDDD
51. Favorite fast food restaurant : pizza hut . more class . xDD
52. Disney Princess: =.= lame .
53. TV station: channel 8 ? channel U ? channel 56 . xD
54. Name for a son: hmmms . some thing related to him .
55. Name for a daugter: some thing related to him too .

&I PREFER-
56. Chocolate or Vanilla? : VANILLA ! xD
57. Alcoholic or not? : ??? i hate alcohol . =.=
60. Scary movies or comedies?: COMEDIES! laugh n smile n forget all ur troubles . x)
61. Short or long hair? : ? medium ? touch neck dere .
62. Croutons or bacon bits? : bacon bits ..?

THE FIRST THING YOU'D THINK OF-
64. Mexicans in general: pizza ? O.o
65. School: him . frends . boredom . homework . =.=
66. Grass: green ?
67. Cow: its a sunny yellow banana day .. xDD
68. Canada: a maple leaf ? O.o
69. Mouse: ewww .
70. Hands: hands . =.=

HAVE YOU ________ IN THE PAST 3 DAYS?-
71. Watched a movie? : nahh .
72. Talked on the phone?: i talk on the fone almost everyday ! xD
73. Cried? : was sad . but nv cry . x)
74. Choked?: no . =X
75. Drank a glass of water? : =.= of course .
76. Done Drugs? : crazy . O.o
77. Read a book or magazine? : yupp . pig heart boy . xD
78. Watched TV? : durh .
79. Looked in the miror? : look in the mirror every morning . (:
80. Taken a shower? : of course . if not i'll be stinky by now .
81. Taken a picture? : yeahh . xDD pictures shoots down the best moments in life . xD
82. Listened to music? : YAH . i sing some more sia . xD
83. Kissed someone? : no .. not so xing fu lar .
84. Told someone you liked them: no .. but im going to .
85. End time: 5.22 .

hope u understand me better . x)

TMR CAMP LERRR !!!!
wows . waited lyk . so long for this moment . im gonna make the full of it ! xDD iLOVEcamps .
<33 y some ppl dun wan go ? if camps lyk this doesnt help u , y did the school organise them for ? they nothing to do ah . they meant well . (: GOOD LUCK N HAVE FUN FOR THE CAMP , SEC 2s ! xDD
oh yah . hu cn be my kayaking partner . dun care . left on da shelf everytime .

oh well . tdy everyone was damn angry at chow . =.= wads gotten into her . suddenly so strict . at classroom outside den shout for us to pull up our tie . den girls must pin up fringe . kns lar . jiamin kena by her n nid to call parents . luckily her parents r supportive . if it was me i sure kena . =.= stupid lar . den wan us camp . every gurl must pin up fringe . tie up hair . wads her problem . =.= she jealous arh . jealous some gurls have fringe nicer den her is it . bu shuang ah . kns . =.= say wht . camp still nid abide by school rules . cannot break them . wad the hell lar . fck . den camp come back . next week common test liao . the school kns one lar . let us relax den so fast wan us to be stressed out . =.= think we wad . robot ah . controlled by them is it . hate it lar . lack of planning lor the school . at least shld lyk . next next week mah . only a few days how to study ?

mmm . u know ler bahs . i guess i have nothing to hide ler . let nature runs it course . just hope everything turns out well n i didnt put pressure on u . (:

oh yah . my tagboard is so damn dead . cn any kind soul tag me more . many thanks . xDD

HAPPIIE DAY ! x)
ystd went out with meijia . shuting . zhihui . jiawei . n don .
went ps .
they went to buy camp stuff . n i just remembered next week got camp n i havent check my list yet . =X ltr lack stuff . must quickly go check the list liao lor . yup . they went daiso . spotlight . n some shops . don go everywhere oso c pigs . xD u fated to pigs lar u . went basement bought something to eat . diet . nv buy . (: but meijia n zhihui feed me stuff . xD tqtq . went up again n slack here n dere . den went to ben n jerry's . the ice cream is truly nice but expensive . x( one cup $4.50 liao . xin tong . den sit outside cathay dere . talked n slacked . den was sent off by meijia they all to bus stop . wait for bus . 14 came n board the bus with don . talk talk talk . den went parkway dere with him n bought some thing to eat n drink . talk . go with him to bus dere . he boarded 48 den i went for swimming class . x)

oh well . tdy is friday the 13th . =X
nth bad happened . YET .
watever . must not be supertisous . x)

hmmms . science lesson so boliao . did the light reflection n refraction thingy . didnt really understand much . i . cindy n jiamin were lyk swearing behind chow's back . =X lol .
HOMEC . another disaster . omg la . how come homec r always a disaster . x( made pizza tdy . its very nice ! xDD i love it . n cn tell don lyk it a lot too . eat the pizza . eat eat eat . some more go take one of zhihui's pineapple . =.= greedy lah don . n don is gay . be a man cn . =X ooops . no offence . xD
maths . IM NOT SLEEPY . i guess sleeping at 12 something is the perfect time for me . xD if i slp at 11 plus i will feel even more tired . =.= dunnoe y . lethargic bahs .

hope tmr will be a nice day . x)

ANOTHER AVERAGE DAY .
at school .
assembly at hall . mr loo say having sec 2 camp SOON . NEXT WEDNESDAY - NEXT FRIDAY ! 3 days 2 nights ! YAY ! i love camps . ((: sure very fun der . cos gt those rope climbing , abseiling plus kayaking . i dun really lyk kayaking lah . but . i love the others ! xDD n best of all . ITS BESIDE THE SEA . YAY . chui hai feng . :D cant wait sia ! :DDD i think its SO MUCH BETTER than the sec 1 der . xDD yay yay yay ! no school some more . x) jiajia dun wan go . HOW CN LAR . u wan stay at school to do 3 days of assignments is it . gt so nice the camp y dun go ? stupid . =.=
lessons dragged on .
oh yah . music was fun . xD played my heart will go on . nice song . (:
chinese cher wan us do wht chun xia qiu dong thingy . =.= lame .
ahhh . geog tt time don go help phillina take table sia . so kind hors ! xD
after school
have the softskill workshop thingy . =.= wah lao . everyone pon lar . e4 esp . almost whole class nv come . 2e5 guai nia . =.= lyk whole class came . our class only 13 gurls n 5 boiis came . the gurls plus 1 boii left grp by grp n 1 by 1 . haiis . band mah . i have to stay dere . damn bored . the instructor say the things n stuff lyk nt funnt der . no one laughed . pity her . =.=

tts my day =.=
nth much .
hope tmr will be a even more exciting day .
n looking forward to the camp . xDDD

做你的公主

或许你没看出来
周围的人都在猜
有种感觉正在我们之间展开

喜欢你偶而作怪
不经意流露的坏
其实体贴实在孩子气的胸怀
曾经有过的恋爱彷佛一片空白
直到遇见你我才真的存在

我只想做你的公主
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠
不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护
我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我
地球也暂停脚步
我刹那间清楚你是我的幸福

沉潜太久的孤独
这一刻获得救赎
我忽然好想哭
感激你这一路
陪我笑陪着我辛苦
无悔的付出

hmmms . an average day .
tdy went sch n blah blah blah . all those stuff .
after school went compass point with rongyong jie . jiawei meii . meijia . clarice . shuting . ivana . xing hong n weilip . went kfc to eat . n i n ry jie was lyk . dun wan eat in front of da boiis . very paiisehh mahs . den ry jie was lyk kip chasing weilip away . xD so funny . but thx . ry jie saved my life . xDD tqtq ! den after eating talk with ry jie a lot alot of stuff . private stuff . xDD LOL . okays . den went montip . ry jie bought 3 black rings . xian mu sia . x) lucky have money buy lohs . den after tt went precious thots . browse arnd den went to see ry jie home . xD den went library agains . slacked . i borrowed a book . pig heart boy . ivana say nice so borrow lohs . xD n slacked some more . go see clarice , xinghong n weilip home den i . shuting . meijia . jiawei meii . n ivana went to buy waffle plus big gulp . xD den went mrt dere sit sit . listen songs . talk bout stuff . den go message don n say wan conference . blahs .
went home quickly cos my dad was shouting to me in the fone lyk wad liddat . =.= went home . kena lectured , blahblahblah . den 5 pm ask everyone call miie . den everyone wan go bathe . so end up bathing myself oso . :D arnd 5.45 pm . den finally gt the conference . only jiawei meijia dey all talk la . i kept quiet cos i dunno wad to say . =/
den don wanted to hang up . everyone started hanging up after tt . sianx ~

okie . tdy gt hell lot of pics to post .
the seniors farewell party today . :D was kinda happy at first but turned out kinda sad . =/ after all , i was closer to this batch of seniors than the last one . waaah .
first . i reached late . =.= y am i always late . anyway . everyone was at the canteen den we wrote those seniors msgs thingy . den sec 3 seniors called everyone up to drama room . we prepared all those performing stuff n gt ready to perform . changed into the costume den slacked n took pictures with the juniors . :D saw their performance . rick is the only senior in all of the sec 1s . =.= lame lurrh . anyway . zijian was damn funny n i laughed lyk siao . xD heheheh . yah . when to performance lab to do the performance . shawndy . rena tt grp was first . watched them from the backstage . shawndy is very very funny . xD their grp did the gatsby thingy n he was the gatsby person . =.= oh well . he danced the thing . n his lines oso damn funny cn ! so gay =.= he say he wanted the gatsby hairstyle den wad . erm . " i want the colourful colourful POM POM hair . " LOL . den ltr he say to the hairdresser (rena) " vellii goodd ! " omg . den he go put the thumbs up sign in a gay way . the whole action is lyk damn funny lurh . falling of my seat in laughter . after tt he say "keep the change . byebye . " n waddled off the stg . omg . this little boy does have a talent in drama . xDD only tt he is very diao n sarcastic at times . =.= LOL . okay . den mine was the second grp . blahblahblah n did the stupid banana dance thingy . =.= BORAT IS VERY FUNNY . jiahui reminded me tt borat is lyk . " bo lat " which means , no strength . LOL ! "hello ! i am bo lat ! " ROFL . xDD yeah . charmaine's grp did the anything n watever thingy . den sec 1 n rick did the bus smrt show . sec 3s did a modeling scene . n ended up rapping the seniors at the end . =.=

okay . second . we had some games . xD stupid games lurrh . we tied up the seniors n locked them inside a room in the performance lab . the biggest prob was EUGIN . he cnt be squeezed into a room full of gurl seniors packed together . xDD

third . had an AMAZING RACE . oh i love drama amazing races . xDDD nicest game i played . its liddat . firstly . it starts off with coming up with a cheer or something liddat in the performance lab . den ltr will send the grp to . for example . my next station was weile's station at the level 4 tables corner dere . actually thivya dunno whr is weile n we ran almost the whole sch den find him . =.= anyway . back to this . yah . den we r supposed to do a challenge dere . n it was spelling a name of a senior forwards n backwards 5 times , whole grp TOGETHER . teamwork mah . den we spelled fiona's name . den weile say after tt must sing a song VERY DRAMATICALLY . den he go sing de dun matter song untill very ... okay . xDD haha . laugh lyk hell . den next station is basement lihe's station . ran all the way down . =.= den nid to sit on the balloon until it burst . wad the hell ltr fall on the floor den butt kena wet how . =.= cos it rained n floor wet . =.= okay . huilin was brave to sit on it n she nv kena fall . PRO . xD den went to rick's staton . =.= stupid-est station n most challenging . ask us tied the cloth arnd the 4 of our legs den walk in order to reach the end . it the end we hopped . xD didnt succeed . but farah let us for our perserverance . xDDD yupp . den went amphitheatre to do bailin's station . its the chair thingy . u noe . the pass chair from one end to another end . blahblah . den went performance lab i think . do the touch-the-paper-plate-with-the-stick game . tt means must touch the paper plate which signifies the letters a to z . kena wrong one time n kena whacked by dunno wad senior . =.= OUCHHH . rahhhh . yup . completed n went back to performers lab . took pics . played with erin's fone . watched the movie bout seniors . talked bout wad we feel . n watch ppl cry . =( waaah . yah . =/
wish the seniors my best luck cos ur da best seniors i had . x) takkecaiire all of yah . good luck for O levels . i will miss u all . wish u come back n c me . will never forget u all . x)

pics .

TAG REPLIES . :D

rongyong : yah . this song damn nice hor . xD n u score 80 marks is quite a lot le . jy !
don : ohh . really ah ? okies den . :D good luck in the next few homec lessons . =X dun burnt anything anymore wor . or zhihui will be having a hard time . :DD
shuting : u r lah . cos u given me so much help , advice , encouragements and lectures . im very grateful to u , jiawei , n meijia .
meijia : lol . okay . xD but im really 101 % sure . he will reject . for sure . im damn certain . YES . im smiling . :)) u must smile too okays ? sure . u will noe bout the results . i will tell u . dun worry . xD
minmin : U MUST JY ! emo damn sucks . i will nt be emo anymore . so will you yah . xD n even though u r . i will cheer u on . love u , nu er .

dere is so many pple helping me thoughout all this hard times . thank you all these ppl . i love u guys . <33

hi guys (:
been happier lately .
cos was thinking la . wads mine is mine . wads not mine will never be mine . if i confess liao den kena reject , nvm lorh . if i be emo n continue being sad over it . its nt goin to help the situation rite ? i might as well get over it n get another life . xD thinking really kills people more than love actually . i lyk him . i think think think . yue think yue worried . think i cnt match up to him . think throw his face away . think tt im shi bai . think he will never lyk me . yup . lyk jiawei said , cannot think la xD thinking makes u even more sad . yeah . true . totally . :D im gonna confess any way . if really tio reject (which i expect 101 %) i think maybe i just try to console myself now n be prepared to be rejected . yeah . ugly duckling cn never match up to prince charming . learnt this phrase real well . =/
so congrats me . im happier !! must be happy ! next time maybe even the guy might fall for my cheerful pesonality . xD ooops . =X but i dun think his tt kind of person anyway . he is tt type of . wun lyk gurls de ren .
watever . MUST CONGRATS ME OKAY !!!! YEAH xDDDD

msgs .

jiahui : sry gal . upsetted u . i do appreciate ur advice though its said a bit too harsh =X ur tone is lyk scolding me . well . it gives me tt idea . sry again . forgive me lar nu er . love u :)
jiawei : tqtq xD helped me a lot a lot cos u consoled me all this while . :D love u gal . u really understand me . :)
shuting : tq u too . help me a lot . ai ni . xD but u sound lyk those very experienced lecturers aka . love teach . xDDD nevertheless . tq . xD
meijia : another love teach . yeah . tq meijia . comforted me so much even when im nt so close u shuting u all . huess we'll be closer as the days go on ... ~ xD tq . love u too .
minhui : cheer up nu er . lyk i said in ur blog . emo-ing doesnt help . only make the situation worse . lyk me =X so . dun emo liao la ok ? love u xD

okay . talk bout tdy ...?
morning was sort of assembly la . danapal retired . :D no nid to be scared of hair anymore . aiya . but still gt farid n angie all those . bowen is really a very strict school =X
anyways , during the assembly gt rahmat say bout the dunno wad nc thingy . oh yah . b4 tt . charmaine n mangay n thivya were the school representatives for story telling ? WOW . O.O i didnt noe . some more all 3 oso drama der . YAY xD . charmaine is der first n she is lyk . dun wan stand up . yah . cn liao jie lah . hu wants to stand up in front of the whole school ? must ti liang lah . xD jiayou charmaine ! yup . if anyone wants to go stand in front of whole school , they are *toot* ! hahas . im SO obsessed with this word ! xDD cos tmr farewell n im in gaya . ruoqi . louis . minmin n jiajia . den in our show we go put tt *toot* cos "farkk" is nt allowed . xDD i came up with tt idea . cos . funny mah . den cn replace oso . xD but i dun wan to be the stupid banana peep ! x( its lame . butb im willing . hahaha . im crazy . xD oh yah . back to rahmat ! erms . he was saying the nc thingy then the 2 pple . one frm 2e4 i dunno the name n one he forgot . =X pls la . this kind of thing oso cn forget . then the e4's reminded him it was minhui . HAHA . den ltr rahmat go say . "oh ! yah ! minmin . she is a prefect on duty . " =.= he called minhui . min min . WTH . =.= diao lah . n its not prefect its counsellor !! lame . rahmat cn be so diao at times . OH YAH . lyk jiajia says , RAHMAT WEARS CROCS . haha ! LOL . omg cn . so improper . wear crocs . =.=

science lesson drags on n chow lee lee said all those light thingy . oh yah new grp . i was grped with xinhong felix n shuxian . okay . felix is funny . xD but kena scolded by chow . =X

HOMEC WAS A DISASTER . but turned out well when ending . anyway , i didnt noe a subject tt im supposed to excel in kena ... . okay . dunno how describe . maybe at home cooking is different frm school . some more . im so paiseh la . x( but buan heng is kind to help out with the stuff . don is right . he is a nice guy x) i think boys nowadays cn cook n do chores better than gurls . does tt mean they r gay ? ooops . sry =X dun mean it ! yup . the food turn out to be ... tasteless . a bit guai lah . not buanheng's fault or my fault la . its just . this thing is guai okay . oh yah . HAHA . don's "pancakes" went chao ta . =X ROFL . really very funny . when he is flipping tt thing over then it was BLACK . okay . sry don , but really very funny . xDDD zhihui . good luck bahs . xD

maths . stupid australia mock maths test . no standard der . frm in front damn easy pri 1 question go to behind de lyk college questions . stupid cn . =.= last few questions anyhow do den last 4 leave blank . oh well . =.=

tmr will be a better day to those hu r emo . JIAYOU ! emo sucks . chase it away ! xD

tried to be happier .
love really makes one tong ku n depressed .
so tried myself to be happy by thinking bout these points :
- everytime u lyk one person , u must confess to him n tell him hw u feel . if not u yi zhi bu confess , wait wait wait until he find stead or some one he lyked den u regret forever rite .
- if the u confessed to tt guy den he doesnt lyk u . at least u will nope its impossible so u cn just forget about it .
- if the guy avoids u after u confessed , he is just a stupid lil coward n not worthy for me to be lyked .
- mature guys wun avoid n still continue to be ur good fren .
- dun think too much . just be happy n smile . must be confident .
- be urself . if tt boy lyk u , he will lyk u for hu u r . n not whether ur fat or wht .

yahh . all these factors r very correct . but . i thought again . if i confessed den tio reject .. i will be heartbroken rite ? noe tt he will nv lyk me or wht . at least if i dun confess just yet , i cn still save myself from the worser torture tt awaits me after i tell him . n some one says miracles will happen . but wad miracle cn happen to me , a fat lil ugly gurl which studies arent-so-great . i totally dun believe in miracles . i noe i shldnt think bout myself liddat . but really . im just too used to be called fat pig or lil irritating gurl for too long . i think tt of myself too . i cnt be compared to any gurl . i just end up being hurt myself . y shld any guy choose me .

i really dun think i pei de shang ta . a perfect shuai boy with a fat ugly gurl . yeah . equals to a BIG JOKE . okay . im nt goin to confess . not yet . i dun wanna be hurt . im afraid .
n i dun believe this miracle thingy .
he pronouce my name wrongly .
he dun pay attention to me .
he doesnt wan to talk to me too .
he just heckcare me .
so wad stand am i to believe tt he lyks me ?? no i really dun think so . never would be the best word . a normal fren cn . but nt a lover . certain .
i still dreams bout he n i tgt . OMG . STOP DREAMING GURL . all this will never come true .

lyking him is very tiring ...
this shld be the biggest crush in my life . everytime think of him .. will be nervous very easily . den heart will beat fast .. hands will sweat .. n lyk have butterflies in my stomach . now cos of him dinner oso no appetite . mayb this is good . help me diet of be a thiner n prettier gurl . or else wht cn i do . min call this . wei ai er tong ku . yeahs . which gurl wouldnt do tt for the guy she lyks ?

tdy went out with rick . alex . jiajia . minmin . had fun at arcade . n b4 we reached jia say she saw wen junjie frm css2 at the arcade . omg . should have been dere earlier . x( yeahs . play play play . den go eat lunch . i have phobia for eating with boys . dunno . nt use to it bahs . cos frm small everytime eat with gurls . so eating with boys very guai for me . tell jiajia bout it . she said , " must ke fu this thingy . this phobia . so practice it when rick n alex comes . or next time u have bf how ? u wun eat with ur bf ah ? " yups . correct . so practiced it when the 2 boys came n . hey ! its really nothing to be embarrassed about . xD so at least i accomplised something tdy .

rick n alex went to watch transformers . i jia n min dun wan watch cos its a show tt only tomboy gurls n boys lyk . omg . sry if i offended some one . yup . so . we went kovan lan . so many pple . no space . or sit arnd at bowling dere doin nth . sit until min nid to go home so we accompanied her till serangoon mrt the gates dere den go back to take mrt to hougang shop shop . nth to do mahs . so just slack cos jiajia dun let me go her hse . boohoo . =/ nvm . realised it was quite late so went home . stopped at compass point n walked to popular . thought bout him when i was reading a book n felt so jin zhang again . feel lyk chionging home . half wan meet him but half dun wan . ended up going to arcade n playing my favourite drum game . hoping to beat away all the nervousness i had in me . it did help a lil . den felt very emo . if i can meet him anywhr . its yuan fen . if i purposely wan go meet him n wasting my time , its nt worth it . yes jia . ur right . so walked home emo-ly . thinking .

n here i am . having my dinner n typing these stuff i experienced during my day .
but i just have no appetite . him bahs . think until no appetite le . the dinner with food i used to love last time seems disgusting to me now . i just dun understand . does love really let ppl suffer so much ? its a question i cnt answer .

msgs .

to jiajia : hey nu er . thx very much for ur every advice given to me .. im grateful n i love u . xD everything u said makes sense . as u oso experienced this kind of things b4 . thx again n again .
to jiawei : tqtq , whether its frm the fone or msn , u still give me the most undeniable facts n advice plus encouragements . love u gal :D
to shuting : thx for the lectures n encouragements . i will try my best . love u too :)
to everyone hu helped me : thx for helping . i love you guys . i will try n build up my confidence n be myself . for if the guy lyks me , he will lyk me for hu i am , n not wad i acted . so . i will really try . xDD tq again .

靠近一点点

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受

能不能再靠近一点点(不再那么遥远)
大声说出你所有感觉(让我听见)
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点(过来我的身边)
能不能再勇敢一点点(让我看见)
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢笑着和你说再见

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂我
会努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受
能不能再靠近一点点(不再那么遥远)
大声说出你所有感觉(让我听见)
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点(过来我的身边)
能不能再勇敢一点点(让我看见)
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢笑着和你说再见

nice song rite .
my love situation bahs .
dedicated to him .
cos i is dan lian . he wont lyk miie . =/

sianx .
tmr youth day .
NO MOE CHILDRENS DAY !!
i wan chilrens day back =/ so used to having childrens day liao .

nth to do n still feeling a lil down .
him him him . how long more must i call him tt . i wan to shout out his name to everyone but i cant . he wunt ever lyk me cn . never ever . he everytime attitude me . not interested in me n ignores me when i try to catch his attention . yes . so far some ppl noes . i dun wan mention names . they xin li you shu la . these cn be the ppl i cn trust bahs . pls dun question these ppl if u wan to noe . pls pls . i dun wan the whole world to noe . these ppl oso cn dun say out ? pls . beg u all liaos loh . i really wan to confess . im a total coward . samson kor say . if u lyk some one den must confess . or u will waste time on thinking . will he lyk me , will he ? even if tio reject den at least u noe its impossible . yah its correct la . its very right . but . sam kor . u r a boy mahs . u zhu dong nvm . but im a gurl sia . gurl can so zhu dong mehx . if tio reject . we both will feel very awkard very guai right . den will avoid each other . if be friends again have very little chance hor . unless if i can confirm if i confess liao den he still act nth happen n be good frens . den i sure will confess . but wad if its the other way round ?? sigh . tts not i want .
he will nv lyk me . even some boys in class make fun of me liaos rite . wad cn i do . mayb his thinking is just lyk those boys . =/
stypid old love .