Monday, July 2, 2007

lyking him is very tiring ...
this shld be the biggest crush in my life . everytime think of him .. will be nervous very easily . den heart will beat fast .. hands will sweat .. n lyk have butterflies in my stomach . now cos of him dinner oso no appetite . mayb this is good . help me diet of be a thiner n prettier gurl . or else wht cn i do . min call this . wei ai er tong ku . yeahs . which gurl wouldnt do tt for the guy she lyks ?

tdy went out with rick . alex . jiajia . minmin . had fun at arcade . n b4 we reached jia say she saw wen junjie frm css2 at the arcade . omg . should have been dere earlier . x( yeahs . play play play . den go eat lunch . i have phobia for eating with boys . dunno . nt use to it bahs . cos frm small everytime eat with gurls . so eating with boys very guai for me . tell jiajia bout it . she said , " must ke fu this thingy . this phobia . so practice it when rick n alex comes . or next time u have bf how ? u wun eat with ur bf ah ? " yups . correct . so practiced it when the 2 boys came n . hey ! its really nothing to be embarrassed about . xD so at least i accomplised something tdy .

rick n alex went to watch transformers . i jia n min dun wan watch cos its a show tt only tomboy gurls n boys lyk . omg . sry if i offended some one . yup . so . we went kovan lan . so many pple . no space . or sit arnd at bowling dere doin nth . sit until min nid to go home so we accompanied her till serangoon mrt the gates dere den go back to take mrt to hougang shop shop . nth to do mahs . so just slack cos jiajia dun let me go her hse . boohoo . =/ nvm . realised it was quite late so went home . stopped at compass point n walked to popular . thought bout him when i was reading a book n felt so jin zhang again . feel lyk chionging home . half wan meet him but half dun wan . ended up going to arcade n playing my favourite drum game . hoping to beat away all the nervousness i had in me . it did help a lil . den felt very emo . if i can meet him anywhr . its yuan fen . if i purposely wan go meet him n wasting my time , its nt worth it . yes jia . ur right . so walked home emo-ly . thinking .

n here i am . having my dinner n typing these stuff i experienced during my day .
but i just have no appetite . him bahs . think until no appetite le . the dinner with food i used to love last time seems disgusting to me now . i just dun understand . does love really let ppl suffer so much ? its a question i cnt answer .

msgs .

to jiajia : hey nu er . thx very much for ur every advice given to me .. im grateful n i love u . xD everything u said makes sense . as u oso experienced this kind of things b4 . thx again n again .
to jiawei : tqtq , whether its frm the fone or msn , u still give me the most undeniable facts n advice plus encouragements . love u gal :D
to shuting : thx for the lectures n encouragements . i will try my best . love u too :)
to everyone hu helped me : thx for helping . i love you guys . i will try n build up my confidence n be myself . for if the guy lyks me , he will lyk me for hu i am , n not wad i acted . so . i will really try . xDD tq again .

your beautiful soul , 9:49 PM .