tried to be happier .
love really makes one tong ku n depressed .
so tried myself to be happy by thinking bout these points :
- everytime u lyk one person , u must confess to him n tell him hw u feel . if not u yi zhi bu confess , wait wait wait until he find stead or some one he lyked den u regret forever rite .
- if the u confessed to tt guy den he doesnt lyk u . at least u will nope its impossible so u cn just forget about it .
- if the guy avoids u after u confessed , he is just a stupid lil coward n not worthy for me to be lyked .
- mature guys wun avoid n still continue to be ur good fren .
- dun think too much . just be happy n smile . must be confident .
- be urself . if tt boy lyk u , he will lyk u for hu u r . n not whether ur fat or wht .

yahh . all these factors r very correct . but . i thought again . if i confessed den tio reject .. i will be heartbroken rite ? noe tt he will nv lyk me or wht . at least if i dun confess just yet , i cn still save myself from the worser torture tt awaits me after i tell him . n some one says miracles will happen . but wad miracle cn happen to me , a fat lil ugly gurl which studies arent-so-great . i totally dun believe in miracles . i noe i shldnt think bout myself liddat . but really . im just too used to be called fat pig or lil irritating gurl for too long . i think tt of myself too . i cnt be compared to any gurl . i just end up being hurt myself . y shld any guy choose me .

i really dun think i pei de shang ta . a perfect shuai boy with a fat ugly gurl . yeah . equals to a BIG JOKE . okay . im nt goin to confess . not yet . i dun wanna be hurt . im afraid .
n i dun believe this miracle thingy .
he pronouce my name wrongly .
he dun pay attention to me .
he doesnt wan to talk to me too .
he just heckcare me .
so wad stand am i to believe tt he lyks me ?? no i really dun think so . never would be the best word . a normal fren cn . but nt a lover . certain .
i still dreams bout he n i tgt . OMG . STOP DREAMING GURL . all this will never come true .