HELLO GUYS :D
sadly , christmas is over . so i have to change my skin D:
hmm .

went to jh hse for christmas eve dinner after an outing with her n fionn is the afternoon . her mom so good leh , gimme one myuk pouch . XDDD thanks auntie alice x33 love it laa . but is my nu er choose for me der , so thanks too nuer :D tt design is the one im dying for . (:

didnt do much on christmas , only went to christmas lunch with my family . but the lunch is damn long . n the stuff served is lyk SO LITTLE ?! cos is western food mah . give little bit little bit . =.= den i not full leh , go back eat maggi mee . so pathetic =.=
n after tt i packed my stuff for drama camp .

tdy packed somemor . cos ystd didnt really pack finish . den went out for lunch n bought some things nided for camp . came back , put somemor things inside the camp bag . dinnered . n watched witch yoo hee . first time watch on tv . n ep 20 liao =.= cos i tot it wasnt nice , but ITS VERY NICE ! LOLS XD n kjh is sooooooooooooooooooo shuai :DDDD although he plays the bad guy D:

n here i am :D i just called jh hse at 11 pm just now n her bro tells me shes slping . n 11.30 . jh tagged my blog -.- diaoooo . dumb ongjiahao .
n yepyep .

IM GOING FOR DRAMA CAMP TMR !
lol okay mayb my reaction is too big .
but im VERY VERY EXCITED FOR DRAMA CAMP xDDDDD
although only camping at school , but i noe its gonna be lots of fun .
hahahahaha , i guess i cnt slp tonite alr :DDDD
so dun miss me yeah , ppl ? XD
i wun be blogging for these 2 days at least . lyk , durhh . im at school XD
i'll be back on 29th ! mayb in the afternoon (:
goshh , its 12.43 now i im still here . LOL !
hope this years drama camp will be even mor fun than last year xDD
n i hope jiajia doesnt fall sick again . :x *crosses fingers for her*

林宥嘉 - 背影

三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前 像一面玻璃
挡住了妳表情 剩下只有脚印

一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后 退不出回忆
很高兴有心事 帮我困住自己

妳头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
妳的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨 我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以 住进妳的眼睛
所以才能 拥抱妳的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以 拥抱妳的背影
所以才能 变成妳的背影
躲在安静角落 不用妳回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和妳相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨 却舍不得淋湿妳

chorus
感谢我不可以 拥抱妳的背影
所以才能 变成妳的背影
躲在安静角落 如果妳回头看
不用在意

n heres this new song by lin you jia . yeah i noe wads jh's reaction .
i hear this song first time on the radio on christmas day , n made me very emo . but i promised you guys i wont be emo anymor . n i promised myself too .
although , i still feel im very silly .
see the songs lyrics . their meaningful . n mayb it will tell you how i feel .

last christmas ; ashley tisdale .

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognize me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me
Happy Christmas I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you", I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special Special Yea yea

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice
I thought you were someone to rely on
Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in her heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I've found a real love, you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

fab song by ashley tisdale . her voice rawks (:


WHOA .
finally finish the blog skin . kip having disasters sia . T.T
but finally i completed it :D
to get the christmas spirit in i changed a christmas skin n song !
i even change the tagboard colour to christmas colour . red+ green xD
nice boh ? comments pls (:
searching for blogskins really is tiresome .
but i finally found a nice one . but when i editedd the template i went bonkers =.=
but finally its done . so happy laaaa :DDD

i cant wait for christmas !
n tmr nite going jiajia hse for dinner with her family n fionn . XD
shyt i haven got the presents yet :xx
but must really get something for my 2 best frends laah .
oh yah , not to forget jiajia's brother -.-
buying gifts for guys very hard sia .
i still dunno wad to buy for ongjiahao =.=

ystd went to collect n deliver cakes .
4 choco logcakes . so hard to carry sia , lucky my aunt went to help me x3
den after delivering went back home eat the logcake , cos my uncle bought one for my family :D so sweet of him laa . the choco logcake is heavenly ^^ yum yum .
n i earned 68 + 17 bucks . xDD
the extra 17 bucks is my uncle gimme der . lols :33
den 25th christmas day still nid go back n get some 4 mor cakes .
mor money ler $.$
yayness ! cn buy another hangbag liao :DDDDD

21st went out with jiajia .
n we bought a zinc bag tgt x33
got alot of skulls der . i bought the black n silver der , n jia bought the gold n white one . we every yr oso liddat . lols . bring to school mahs . den next yr buy agn XD
we went to bugis street n buy . the uncle give us discount . x3 so nice hors . den we pay lesser than shopping centre zinc shops . but is real der laa . not fake one =.=
den bought another pair of slippers , n a new dress . pink :3
haven finish shopping den mom called me n ask me go home . zz .
so mayb next time go n shop agn :DD

n thanks for your concern ppl (:
i dun wan to be emo agn .
im gonna let go of him . happily .
hes really a nice guy , but mayb i just lack the luck to be with him .
or mayb its just not fated .
i lyked the wrong guy , but i dun regret it (:
its my longest crush . n my most expierencing one too .
i really learn a lot of things bout love through this crush .
i dun know , but i think i wouldnt want to love again .
cos i dun wanna fall back so hard lyk this time any mor .

y am i so stupid ?
y am i so silly ?
y am i so idiotic ?
to lyk a guy tt wont ever lyk me .
the first day i lyk him .
the first sec i noe i lyk him .
i alr noe its impossible .
so y am i so stupid ?
so silly ?
to lyk him for freaking 5 months ?
i am really very stupid .
i wasted alot of feelings .
emotions .
time .
in this 5 months .
wad for .
now im really trying to get over him .
but y so difficult ?
he is lyk clinging on to my heart .
refusing to let go .
i want to fling him away .
as hard as i can .
but y as much as i try to fling him away .
he would just stuck dere ?
he is a good guy .
but mayb we just dun have the fate with us .
never mind .
y is it so easy to get on .
but so hard to get off from it ?
im stupid .
not in studies .
but in relationships .
y always i dun reap wad i sow ?
he is the guy i had spent most time .
but i didnt get back anything .
maybe , i really shldnt lyk anyone anymor .
i really nid someone .
i want a fresh new start in 2008 .
once the clock strikes 12 on 31st dec .
everything .
everything in my life .
relationships , studies , everything .
is going to change course .
me , i am going to change it .
i dun want to be the old me any longer .
i dun want to get bullied , get hurt anymor .
next yr , its gonna change for the better .
n im not going to fall so badly again .
n im NOT gonna do this agn .


ADDICTED .

I heard you're doing ok But I want you to know
I'm addic- I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker Heartbreaker Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you And after all we've been through
I'm still a dict- I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy I did all that I could
Just to keep you But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it I'm addicted to you
Now it's over Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting ? Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it I'm addicted to you
I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it I'm addicted to you
Now it's over Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you Heartbreaker


i'd run a thousand miles to get you ,
but you would still reject me ,
even if i run a millionth of them .

放开手 ; 牛奶

把回忆封锁在遥远的地带
提起勇气去面对新的未来
已不能做什么
只能交给命运去安排
可能有些事我们都看不开

为什么要失去才懂得珍惜
后悔却压抑不了倔强的心
心灵那么接近却又不近
被误解隔离
能否找一个方式说对不起

放开手要迎接新的未来
可怜的我却还是依赖
你的爱我永远不忘怀
共度的日子锁在脑海
最后演变成相互伤害
相信我们彼此都感慨
感情变质了
默契却还在
哦～啦啦啦...

说不出口的悲哀不愿离开
一个人独自承受快乐悲哀
已不能做什么
只能交给命运去安排
可能最终注定我们要分开

hear this song while playing audi .
make me so emo until my game go havoc TT
but its really nice song .
if the beat isnt 132 , lyk 90+ , i would love it mor .
funny sia . the song so emo the beat so high ==
but i just love this song . hahas .

n im UNGROUNDED .
my fone bill 60 bucks . a lot lesser . so , YAY :D
i cn go out lerrs ! but im still sick .
ah fish . pls pls pls dun let me sick for the whole hols !
i wan be okay by this week O_O
plspls , *prays to god* .

i've been thinking a lot these few days . but im still very confused . im trap between letting go or not . cn you just gimme an answer ? just a simple answer . you n i noe very well wad is the answer . i dun wish to drag it further . cn you give me the answer , so tt i cn give up on you once n for all ?
i really want to fang kai , but everytime i think of you ..
i want to let go . but the thought always stop me .
please .
free me from being trapped . okay ?
since tt thing . you dun even care to gimme a sms . something simple liddat oso dun have . i guess im just nothing in your heart . n i simply dun even have a place in it . mayb im just a pinch of sand in your world . or mayb not even tt .
i noe everyone has a place in ones heart .
but i think i dun even stand abit at all in yours .

shiit lah . blast my mom sia .
i waited for lyk 1 whole month awaiting tdy , cos my dad say want to lemme pierce earhole .
was so happy you noe . den she go say wad . you sick lah . cough ah . cannot pierce .
wtf ? wad crap sia . whole mood spoil liao .
n she expect me to understand . wad shit lah .
kns sia .
everytime postpon postpon postpon . den next week she say something agn den postpon agn . den school reopen dun nid pierce liao ah . wtf lah .
hu say sick cannot pierce earhole ? i dun believe i so suay lah . kena infection .
even if kena oso not her problem mah .
kanasai lah .

mood spoiled .

HELLOS (:
blogging again .

just went to compass kfc to meet up with philly n her new cell group , n412 .
i was lyk devastated when i heard tt no mor original n349 anymor .
n i burst in front of philly . == poor phill , she had to put up with my outburst .
sorry jiemei :D you wouldnt blame me rite ? you noe me for 2 yrs liao loh . you should noe im liddat de mah xD lols .
so just now went to see her new cell grp . still got some ppl lyk philly n jerome inside lol . but no mor samkor . hais . LOL :x but n412 has a lot of nice ppl too lah ((:
n philly said she almost couldnt recognise me cos of my hair . LOL . :xx well , im still the old gohcaiqin lah , hahas . n mel dated me to chc's "prom night" . i forgot the real name sia :xx stm stm . dance night or something :x 20 dec . its when you dress nice nice n formally n go dance . hahas ! den i cn spend mor time with them lols . i want go lehhhh . den i cn go shopping with them :DD at bugis ! woot xD hu want go ? sure very fun der xDD but must see whether im free from grounding . lol ==

N IM STILL SICKKKKKKKKKK .
dammiit . hu has a medicine to cure sorethroat flu n cough altogether ? gosh TT
n my fever kips stepping in n out =.= when will it be completely gone ? sheesh ==
i want to go out lahhhhhh . == pls dun let me be sick all the way throughout dec hols TT
tts gonna be sad man .
n i cnt go to drama camp liao . OH MY O:

HU WANT CHRISTMAS LOG CAKE AH ? plsplspls order from me or minhui .
pls help me , its my job TT

so long , folks :DD

我会好好过 李玖哲

你的爱很像 泡沫 太轻或太重 都不在手中
我的爱就像 天空 太放或太收 你都只是风
你来过 却爱上自由
你出走 我不问理由

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你再爱我
向右或向左 都有我站在这里守候

new song (:
actually wanted wei qiang . but min n jia have it alr , so i dun dare take :P
this song is very nice too luhhs .

okays . im finally back from my china trip .
got miss me ? xD well i miss all of you guys ((:
love yall .

the china trip is 8 days leh . if you want me to describe will be darn long loh .
mayb some other time lah . cos i feel lyk playing audi now xP
but china is damn fun lah , trust me .
the scenery is a feast for the eyes man ! ^^
if you dun count the classically disgusting toliets n long bus rides , everything is quite perfect ((:
although some atonishing stuff happen to me along this trip :O
n atonishing meant , VERY atonishing :OOO
it may be very surprising :xxx

oh yeah , i rebonded my hair ! ((: n cut my fringe too :D
so darn happy lurh . china rebond hair cheap sia .
now must every yr go back china rebond liao :xx
the highlight oso cheap loh , but mum dun let ):
okays the pic of my rebonded hair is over dere >> at the profile dere lah .
LOL . very sian to upload fotos .
mayb tmr den upload some fotos taken in china bahs .

now im down with fever flu n sorethroat , n now a bit of cough .
darn , im gonna get better so i cn go out with jiajia n my future classmates .
cnt wait sia xD must eat mor medicine n take care of myself XD
jiayou gohcaiqin ! :DD

oh yeah one thing .
I SERIOUSLY HATE PLANE FLIGHTS .
make me so freakingly dizzy n have a throbbing headache .
even if i sit the nice nice sia i will oso liddat =.=
gosh wads happening to me lahh .
i wasnt liddat in pri 1 T.T

LALALA . i want to play audi alr !
nah philly , heres your post ((:
happy ?
buh bye everyone xD

我要的世界

越过山巅 越过海水
越过一路 充满荆棘的冒险
我要去追 我还要飞 我不害怕 一路有多少的危险
在天亮之前做好准备 往前方的路 能看得到终点
我不会后悔 我很绝对
我要一个精彩的明天

为了你我不后退
我要看见成功慢慢实现 因为爱能让梦想起飞
路有多远 我要自己跨越
每次我闭上双眼 只想到你 对我微笑的脸
我跑过了 每条地平线
还差一步 就突破了终点


love this song (:

yes , back from china .
shall post tonite .
very tired now .
bye xD