im just freaking pissed off .

yo everybody (:

a random post .
rushing off to audi .

tdy . a lot of shocking news .
somehow , i felt very pathetic .

n you seemed to have changed so much . you are not the one i noe any longer . you bastard . since you want it tt way . fine , i shall do the same . you dun deserve me being worried for you . i treated you with all my heart . n this is wad i get . ungrateful . but why does it turn out this way ? i want us to go back again . to the past .

我们怎么了

落泪以前再看一眼
你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念

我凝视你而你凝视
窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活

你的笑脸还在胸前
晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕旋

如果我们继续向前
走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活

明明从前 连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会 说句话就能痛一边

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否能让什么 复活


我们怎么了 ?

LIFE SUCKS .

i want to keep my promise . yet i dun wanna deceive myself . hais .

tdy (:

hahas . firstly . gt to sch . gt public caning =.=! the ppl lyk nt pain one lah . dun even nid to cane them lol .
second is bio . the cher told us bout some files stuff . hm . n did some worksheets . i still LOVE bio xDD
den is chinese . this time i didnt slack ! :DD i did my bao zhang bao dao man ! :DD wahahahas . im so proud of myself . (:
den ss . GOT TO FLING THE TEACHER ! >:DDDD LOL . sound so evil . nt fling adrian lah . is the stupid computer game her invented ? o.o wows . den when the tcher kena flinged is lyk happy tree frends man . omg :O tts wad baobei n i agreed xD
after recess was lit . I SERIOUSLY LYK MRS YOU . shes soooooo cute :33 i love lit laaaah . xDD n i read the much ado about nothing liao . now they want change it too a midsummer's nite dream ? wth sia =.= zz .
den was eng . my diagnostic test majiam only get 10/25 ? =.= zzzz . ~!@#$% ! next time do better D: n TT JACOB OH OSO KENA 50 CENTS . WAHAHAHA . XDD
den was chem . did some experiment thingy . paper chromatography , i think . the food colouring effect damn nice sia ! :DDD ty jiamin for giving me her nice one xD

okays . den i went with sx hornehh bitch , philly prettaye bitch n jiamin hyper bitch to sx hse der eat kopitiam . we chatted alot :DD 4 bitched tgt >:D im the crazy bitchhh . xD
den nicholas di came ltr n we went up to sx's hse n watch ACHMED agn XDD pls look this up in youtube . its lyk so darn funehh ? :DD played arnd her hse till lyk 6.45 den went off with nicholas di . he's so sweet , pei me wait for bus . but i owe him a lolli :D hahas . loves di , baobei , jie n mei man x333

got home . bathed . ate . here i am :D
cnt find a skin for class blog . n doing project soon .
i want to play audi . x3333333333 !

i dunno y , but i seem to be deceiving myself .
hais .

so tdy ! (:

forgot to bring tie again =.= lucky serene help me sia ! xD loves you lots lots . x33 almost late for school nia . lucky rushed it in time lol .
had assembly . so damn boring laaaa . its lyk they r talking bout the CIP n stuff ? i see all those taiwan ppl beside us r practically all slping . zzz -.- i oso feel lyk slping ler .
next lesson was chem . omg i slpt ? i duno lah , but i seriously cannot hear wad sundram talking . her accent is so damn funny n weird == liddat oso cn be HOD man . omg . liddat i oso cn be ler :D n i cn speak better n clearer than her xD
okays . after recess was chinese . sibeh slack lahs omg . every lesson liddat . if my mom wasnt a chinese cher , i tell you i cn go n die . the chinese cher seriously sucks . zz .
den was a maths . indices . damn hard lah hais . i admit e maths is really much easier than e maths . even e2 ppl say the damn so difficult lah , die ?! omg . i think i get 0 liao cn . fail fail fail . kill me -.- n padma confiscated jm's fone . omg .. T.T haiyo . wish she could get it back quick nohs .
e maths . iszal boh come again :DD yayayay ! cn slack :X lol lyk so bad sia . but its better than having lesson (:
den after lunch was geog . ms sandra teo was very funny n nice . (: although i slpt again =.= i drank coffee in the morning liao loh . omg philly . the effect is fading sia T.T haiis .

after tt went for drama . n had the AUDITION , omg :OO is lyk i n jia go inside . minds blank one loh . den did some master n servant thing ? @.@ did badly . kip laughing . cos its so funny lah xD den cher gave us another chance . so we made up one mother n daughter thingy n they praised us :D dunno fake anot lah , but it pleases me (: n after tt ms lim said i did a good job :DD

tts all for tdy ! im making a 3e3 class blog (: so long !

我爱的人- 林宥嘉

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

i saw something just now .
n i dunno y , it just made my heart sink .

im not suppose to be sad bout it , but y am i being unhappy over it ..?
i think . i musnt .
i really musnt .
before i sink too deep .

AT THE BEGINNING .

We were strangers Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what wed have to go through
Now here we are And Im suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, that I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road I wanna keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is road now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road I wanna keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is road now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know that my dream will live on
Ive been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart

And life is a road I wanna keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is road now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I want to keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I

sometimes i wonder . at the beginning . y did i love you at all ?
but thinking all those memories , i really dun regret lyking you at all .
all beginnings have an ending .
so now im gonna walk on without you , n start on a new journey (:
n sry , jiajia , if this song made you unhappy ):

changed a new skin . its nice , so i just took it .
i want to play audi laa ! but the stupid patch is lyk so long -.-
i think i go slp oso hvn finish noh . T.T
n my class list oso nt done yet :X but fang xin , i nv finish i wun go slp der xD
i love 3e3 ! but i oso miss 2e3 )): faster class outing ! go escape again XD
n the project oso hvn done yet . shyt sia =.= tonite go nid slp lers .

tdy was damn tiring .
due to the stupid 6 periods of maths . 3 hours leh .
ALL MATHS -.- shyt man . hate maths . hate maths . really hate maths . ==
guowei was lyk practically nodding through the whole lesson . esp a maths . so funny lah he :XX lols . before 6 periods was chem n eng . finally jm came n saved me from being un-alone . LOL :D you better dun pon sch liao hors .
recess chatted with lynnette n philly they all . lynnette wanted me to post her name here . so i shall post BIGBIG . LYNNETTE TOH LINGYI ! heres your name ! wahahahahahas xDDD
afternoon lesson was bio . IM BORN FOR BIO ! LOL :XX i really love bio x3333 cheers man ! :D it may be cheem but its darn interesting xP

after tt went to look for mrs nair n ms lim with philly . cos she wants to join drama ! tdy she came for sec 1 orientation so shes part of us now . yayayayay ! :DDD cheeeeers man . n the orientation was a BLAST . games , games n mor games xDD funnnnnnn . drama is a bunch of crazy ppl :D im crazy , so i loveeeee drama <333 !
after drama , went home with gaya , rocky n mandy . walked the same route . rocky is just so cuteeeee x3 ! love her hahahs .
n i love my jiajia nuer n minmin nuer too x33 !

n now im copying my phillina jie n ry laoba xD :
JIAJIA NUER + MINMIN NUER + YANNI LAOPO + SHUXIAN BAOBEI + PHILLINA JIE + JIAMIN MEI + RONGYONG LAOBA + CINDY MUMMY = SIMPLY LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE x3333 !
wahhaahahas . im just so happy to come into bowen n have a such a bunch of wonderful frends :33 !

gotta go do the class list n project luhhs . sooo longggg ! :DD

heys ppl . so sry for not updating . these few days very very busy with homework . pure science really stress nohs . zao zhi dao i go choose combined ler :X

okays .
TDY IS A DAMN SUAY DAY .
stupid lah . bad things started happening one after another after recess man .

worse 2 things is .

my hp , kena con in a maths lesson . zz .
after sch , went to get back . lucky padma nice gimme hors .
after tt . come out . sms jiamin .
KENA CAUGHT BY GOY !
lucky i plead lyk shyt den get it back sia .
but i first time hp con in front of everyone .
so malu sia . den jacob come n scold me ben . ZZ ! si jacob :X
hais . but enuf to make me damn scared of this school lah .

hate the new principal lah . kns . wad strict discipline tone or wad shyt . )=

hais . tts all . want go play audi .
so long for now (:

im really hapy tt im forgetting you alr .
im really glad my feelings towards you are really fading .
im trying very hard , n its starting to work .
im really relieved tt i cn free myself from you .
its lyk i just gt my roots stuck to you tt time .
but now im really glad (:
im able to free myself from the emo world .
cos emo SUCKS .

TDY IS A BAD DAY .
fk .

yoyos . finally blogging here .
was lyk so busy with homework these few days T.T
n i hate maths . hate maths . REALLY hate maths . ==

lyk ystd n sunday , i spent lyk 3 to 4 hours doing the dumb maths hw ??!! gosh laa =.= n just now doing chem hw . bu dao 15 mins jiu finish liao =.= i think my science really better than my maths . MUCH BETTER , in fact . lol -.-

tdy went sch .
first thing in the morning rush rush rush . forgot bring tie . den kena caught laa . so long nv go sch ler , forgot tuesday is tie day =.= zz . den kena dc . sianjipuahh .
had assembly after tt , gave out the good progress awards n stuff . i clapped extra loud for nu er :D sx didnt go on stg , but congrats too ! xD lyk 2e3 disband ler , 3e3 no scream or shouts D: lyk so quiet loh . hais . i miss 2e3 n our enthusiasm n hyperness . ): 3e3 is lyk so quiet ?! normally i tot will talk alot . den everytime lesson so quiet loh =.=

hm . ltr gt lessons loh . chem is interesting , i think i lyk chem better ler . but it would be much better if sundram wasnt so action .. :X but at least shes makes the lesson interesting :XX
chinese . I N ONGJIAHUI DROP INTO NORMAL CHINESE CLASS 2ND CLASS OFFICIALLY . tdy is such an eventful day == n a very memorable one too . the tcher talk lyk so soft ?! cnt hear a thing . den i n jiajia talk only . ask us stand ?! lyk wtf ? == wad a NICE first day in normal chi . if my chi no a2 i think i cn go n die liao . n i will go back into higher chi . if possible . hmph . damn mad at the cher . n somemor gt wad 12 zodiac grp ? wth tt is so lame ! n ask us read ke wen n read words n sentences tgt lyk pri 1 liddat . omg sia =.= even jm cnt tolerate her . zz . n dinghan n yijin damn funny lah . LOL . xDD btw me n jiajia were taking zilian photos tgt n the cher dun even noe ! GONG SIA . ROFL .
den a maths . padma is reallly nice . i think i lyk her alr (: n even seniors tell me tt she is de best a maths cher in sec 4 ! wow o.o lucky xD but the amaths ques cn make me crazy .
maths lesson . iszal really go damn fast laaaaaa . zz == cnt kip up sia . n e maths oso difficult . i think i cn drop a maths ler . pathetic =.= really tao yan maths laa .

after school . ate lunch . uh huh . n ernest qi pian gan qing ! we asked him to hv lunch with us . den he say he nt eating . den ltr we saw him in the canteen eating with tohyijin they all . hmph . bad ernest !
geog lesson . ms sandra teo is very cute n funny ! :D learnt the rule . heard by jiajia last time ler . Books Bell Buttock Best ! XD 4Bs . :D so bad geog lesson only once a week . i cn hv it everyday ! :D now i noe y 2e4 ppl last yr score so well for geog ler . hais . y last yr nv get ms teo D:

after this go for dc . rocky pei-ed me . thanks rocky ! x33 did some bloody maths hw . arghh . dc finish went for drama .
drama was okay .. helped publicity ppl do the mask thing . its nice . but its hard to make . i cut the thing until ban si lah ! if i see any of the sec 1s throwing out masks away , i tell you i sure catch him or her by the ear n SCOLD him or her . so much for our effort . TT down the rubbish bin .
after tt went home with jiajia . she ps me n walked off without me . T.T when i run until == caught up with her . she tell me she training my stamina . THANKS GAL TT damn tired . whole day still ask me run with a heavy bag . hais .
she went busstop with me n went mama shop oso . bought curry puffs n drinks . ate while waiting for bus . den saw syed dancing retardly in her fone n diao -.- she got on . a while mor my bus came n yeah .

mum rushing me off to slp nows . byebyes ! (:

yo ppl .

went swimming tdy . 1 month nv swim ler , skills detoriated . D: must buck ups ler . tcher taught us butterfly tdy . cher say im a fast learner (: haha yea man . but the butterfly made my waist very pain ><

ohs . n tmr meeting shuaxian baobei n phillina jie at amk to buy stuff for school . hope to hv fun . ciao ! (:

changed new song .

cry by rihanna ;
i'm not the type to get my heart broken
i'm not the type to get upset and cry
cause i never leave my heart open
never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships don't get deep to me
never got the whole in love thing
and someone can say they love me truely
but at the time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone, i'm spinning round
and deep inside, my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip, what's happening
i stray from love, this is how i feel

this time was different felt like, i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life
now i'm, in this condition and i've,
got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry

did it happen when we first kissed
cause it's hurting me to let it go
maybe cause we spent so much time
and i know that it's no more
i shoulda never let you hold me baby
maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
i didn't give to you on purpose
gotta figure out how you stole my heart

how did i get here with you, i'll never know
i never meant to let it get so, personal
after all i tried to do, stay away from loving you
i'm broken hearted, i can't let you know
and i won't let it show you won't see me cry

this time was different felt like, i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life
now i'm, in this condition and i've,
got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry
all my life...

very sad song . love it .

ystd i sat beside you in lifelit . its the same nervous , timid feeling lyk b4 . why ? why is this feeling back agn ? im really very confused , mao dun . i said i would forget my feelings for you n get over you . i promised myself , how cn i go back on my promise ?
i tot i had gotten over you , but looks lyk im not .
n i hate myself for it .

hellos .
hm . tdy was okay .
first period was el . did the stupid diagnosis test . but its interesting n quite easy , cept for close passages . some blanks i dunno wad to put lohs . i did finsih 35 mins before the test ended so i slept throughout 30 mins . =.=
second was ce . padma gave us a new timetable cos she say our one too small . -.- but aiya , quite thoughtful of her . hahas . (:
last 3 periods lit . did a lit test comphre . i wrote a lot until my hand -.- n the class become 47 ppl 0.o den nid to spilt , e2 n e3 . sad laa , cnt see minhui nuer , cindy mummy n ry laoba anymor D: hm . will have both tchers alternately . youmeechoo n guna . n we're gonna do shakespeare ! omg i loovvveeee shakespeare :DD his stories rock man .
oh yeah . padma changed our places n my sitting arangement changed T.T no mor philly . beside me is ernest . den shuxian n jiamin still remain behind us . den liyi n yunxin infront . poor philly went to sit with jacob :x but jacob is fun laa ! lols xD n ernest seems lyk a nice guy . (:
oh oh . reps n chairpersons r chosen . 3e3's monitors are .. DARREN n SAMMY :D claps claps . i think darren gt chosen cos of him long pants -.- congrats anw :D n farah is noticeboard rep . at first they chose me , i dun wan :x the others i forgot ? :XX i stm liao laa . lols .

after school went with gaya n rocky out of sch to eat maggi mee for lunch . n 7-11 tt time saw wisman they all n i was lyk :OOOOOO omg . quickly hide . lols . den went to playgrnd der n makan our mee . joked n laughed n sang der . n deres this indian boy kip asking us for 30 cents . 30 cents . 30 cents . =.= irritating laa so i gave him 40 cents n he went away . lols -.- poor boy though .
went back to sch to have drama . dicussed wad characters to be in lt . im a painter ! :D cos i gt the painter cap at home xD borrowed a white blouse frm drama room n going to get a black tie from jia . hope she lends it to me :X its okay even if it has the E thing on it .. :/ n jiajia n minmin came quite late . they n yuqi r genies . :D n daffy is witch , louis n darren are puppets , rena is a violinist , zijian a villager n gaya medusa . i think tts all ? i forgot too :X hm . hope our cca open hse will be a great success n pull alot of sec 1s in , for the FUTURE OF DRAMA XDDD LOL .
after drama . went basketballing with chihcheng , nigel , charmaine n joel came in ltr . had alot of fun n i shot a lot of hoops :DD good exercise . i will i wanna play bball 1 time a week at least liao . too fat . :/
tmr going for swimming lesson . 1 month nv go , r my skills gone ? *prays*

yoos ppl .
tdy second day of school .
still hvn meet finish all the tchers -.-

hm . tdy go sch . first period is chem . mrs sundram . wahh she talk until i want slp sia =.= i think im gonna hate chem liao . -.- although sometimes she very action , den very funny xD
second period is eng . ms james n mrs thoo came in . den told us deres a test tmr , n blahblahblah wads the test abt . n the e1 , e2 n e3 is gonna split into 4 grps . y split agn sia .. -.-
after recess . 6 FREAKING PERIODS OF MATHS . shyt , im gonna hate thursdays . zzz . first 3 periods of e maths , but didnt turn out so bad at all :D mrs iszal's sooooo nice ^^ she gave us presents n played bingo with us xD so nice laa . but ltr she went on to rules n she became very strict . T.T but lyk jiamin said , first impression's most impt ! :D
3 periods of add maths next . gosh padma treat us lyk sec 1s laa . she wrote a " simultaneous equations" on the board n started shouting asking . "what is equation ?" =.= diao lah . den she teach until so bloody slow tt i fell aslp n kena caught by her . she was lyk . pointing to me n said , "YOU ! so wash your face !" den i ps lah . =.= zz . hu ask her lesson so boring . but nvm , ms normala n ms tan oso did tt to me b4 , as i always slp in maths lessons . LOL . muo zhou ah . lol ! ah . den ltr i ask question , she came den put her hand on my shoulder . den i gt the answer she go slap my back . PAIN SIA . jialat . n she touch shuxian n farah oso . -.-
lol =.=
lets hope tmr will be better .

OH YAH i wanna say the books r so damn !@#$%^& HEAVY !!
ONGJIAHUI . REGISTER LOCKER WITH ME HOR .
pls . or else i die ><

hihis ppl . (:
tdy was the first day of school . was very tired . im always tired in sch anw =.=
hmm . okays . list of tchers :
ss ; adrian .
lit ; guna n youmeechoo .
maths ; iszal .
a maths ; padma (form)
the rest nt confirm , or i forgot :X
hm . quite satisfied with the chers bahs . im gonna love lit man :D love tt subject lahs . n padma is a very good maths tcher i guess . n shes nice too (: although she kips repeating the same thing agn n agn . lyk my uncle sia -.- n adrian is damn strict lah =.=

okay . sch started n some changes r made .
no mor homeroom system . which is GOOD . so i dun have to bring my heavy bag all arnd the sch xD n go recess oso no nid bring one whole big bag of stuff hanging to my neck =.= im satisfied , as im waiting for this for the past 2 yrs ! :D
hm . farid made a discipline talk AGN this yr =.= tell sec 1s cn liao , tell us for wad ? poor sec 5s , they have to listen for 5 yrs =.= i listen 3rd time liao laaa . sian diao -.- n use hp only lead to expelltion ? BAI TUO LA . =.= only use hp nia . siao der the frederick yeo . =.=
weds cn report to sch at 8.30 ! yayness :D cn wake up late liao . hahahahaha . ((:

hm . i still dunno my index number . padma hvn tell us . *prays hard for number 6* if anyone steal my 6 i CHOP her . :X
hmmm . i think 3e3 is a nice class :D but its quite quiet lah , cos most of us is guaikia XD bt im gonna make mor frends with my mates n love 3e3 . xD all the time is with 3e3 is lessons , except lit . cos gt others take history or wad . so must split up . im in lit with most of 2e3'07 ! hhaahah xD n minhui nuer oso same as me x3
lalalas , hope to enjoy life in 3e3 ! (: but i will always rmb 2e3'07 der :D

why why why .
i almost gave up on you alr . but when i saw you agn tdy , its lyk the feeling all coming back . NO . i dun want tt . giving up on you is my most impt plan for 2008 . why ? why must you always mesmerise me so much when its totally impossible ? WHY . i just realised im such a big fool .

HAPPY NEW YR 2008 ! :D
gosh . 2007 is gone . n 2008 is here .
2007 . a lot of stuff happened .
happy ones . sad ones . exciting ones . embarrassing ones ... etc etc .
well . 2008 is a new start . n i wunt repeat the mistakes i did .
i have alot of plansn targets for 2008 .
n i must complete them .