i noe everything is all my fault .
n i noe , saying anything doesnt help now .
but im just begging for a chance to change .
i dun deserve all of yours trust anymor .
i dun have the face to face you guys now .
everything started with me .
so just blame it all on me .
i got nth to say alr .
saying sry is no use , its just too late .
i broken all the trust you had in me .
but i promise , i will work hard to obtain it back agn .
im just begging for a chance to change .

another quiz taken from sx horny bytch n philly sotong bytchh :D

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU
{ cq :D
{ fishball ; caiball :D
{ crazy bytch :D

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE
{ 230607 :D
{ 050893 :D
{ 010208 :D

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 3HOURS
{ sleep :D
{ chatting :D
{ blogging :D

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY
{ hanging out with bytch clique n lovelys :D
{ shopping :D
{ n shopping :D

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
{ shopping :D
{ talking n chatting :D
{ eating :D

THREE PERSONS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST
{ cassbestie !
{ chelsea bestie !
{ vidya bestie !

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE
{ handphone ! :D
{ clothes ! :D
{ moneyyyy :DD

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE ITEMS
{ handphone :D
{ computer :D
{ headfones :D

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY
{ JAPAN ! L L L x33 !
{ korea :D
{ hawaii ! :D

THREE FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS
{ spongebob :D
{ mickey mouse :D
{ hello kitty ? -.-

THREE GIRL'S/BOY'S NAMES:
{ everyone in bytch clique :DD
{ jiahui nuer ! :D
{ cassbestie :D

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO
{ compass point :D
{ bugis street :D
{ fareast plaza :D

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FASTFOOD
{ pizza hut :D
{ macs :D
{ kfc :D

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
{ gek hway :D
{ green tea :D
{ coca cola :D

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG
{ handphone :D
{ wallet :D
{ keys :D

THREE FAVORITE COLORS
{ blueeee :D
{ pink :D
{ black :D

THREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO
{ my birthday ! :DD
{ bitch clique 1st month :D
{ 3e3 class outing ! :D

so longgggg :D

n daren tan's song agn :D
明天我不会依然爱你 (:
enjoyyyy .

just a random quiz taken from sx horny bytchh :D

1.What are you wearing right now?
blue tee , green shorts n slippers .

2. Do you trust your friends?
i trust bytchh family n my lovelys ! :D

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the person you love?
of cos , i'll be mor than happy to .

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yaa ? or y does it happen for ?

5. What did u do today?
went out with sx horny bytch , fadhli bestfrend n racist yh >:D

6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best roommate for you?
anyone from bytchh family n lovelys ! :D

7. Can you deal with people who are too concerned with status?
um depends ?

8. Are you afraid of falling in love?Why or why not?
yes . cos always the person i lyk doesnt return the same feelings back .

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times throughout the day?
yes . but not so often anymor (:

10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new guy/girl?
of cos not ! i would nv abandon my girlfrends :D

11. Name one person from your friendslist that you could call to fix a flattire.
ummm . ummm . FADHLI ! :D

12. From your friends list, who can you call in the middle of the night?
anyone from bytch family n lovelys ! :D

13. What qualities do you find most attractive with the opposite sex?
his smile , his height , his figure , his humorous standard :DD

14. Fill in the blank. I will ___ leave my love ones.
wad in the blank would be : never ever :D

15. What is your number one priority in life?
made everyday a good day (:

16. Are you feeling alone today?
nopeee . i just went out with my besties :D

17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding to be?
who cares ? as long as your gonna get married to your love <3 anything doesnt matter (:

18. Do you feel sexy?
no . im perfectly not :D

19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would want to see?
him . n my bytch family n lovelys ! :D

21. Would you make a good parent?
i dunno o.o im not a parent yet . choy !

22. Do you have a crush?
yes .

23. What is your middle initial?
wth is my middle initial :O

24. What is your current relationship status?
single (:

25. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
no . it never happens .

26. What is your current mood?
super high over L :DD

27. What do you love most?
my bytches n lovelys <3

28. What makes you most happy?
being with bytch family n lovelys ! n finding a good boyfrend tt loves you alot (:

29. Are you musically inclined?
errr . i would say no -.-

30. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
i would develop a better personality (:

31. Your last sms was from?
ong . jia . hui . LOL xD

32. Do you have a porn collection?
no ?! wth -.-

33.If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
a jap name ! :D L L L x33 !!

34. What's a sure way to catch your attention?
ummm . a cute guy ? LOL !

35. Last question. What would you like to say to the person on your mind?
如果真的有一天, 我学会了放弃你, 不是我忘了你, 而是因为我太爱你 .

knock knock .
who's there ?
me . i love you ! x3
*adapted from achmed :D

i forgot to add something .

L = simplyCUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE x333 !!
everything he does is just one word = CUTE !!
omggggggggggg .
hes hot n shuai too !
but i can only use one word tt comes to my mind when i see him .
tt is ,
CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!! x333333

ahhhhh ! im totally crazy over him <3

yoooooo ppl :D

lessons was boring at first . but they started to get ridiculously crazy ltr xDD
first was bio , den chi n ss . i slpt during ss n got caught by cher -.- lucky he didnt scold me . heng ah ! :DD
den was lit . groupwork was fun man xD n tt crazy woman danced n made our whole grp laugh . its lyk she waved her arms around lyk a retard sia o.o she danced , our grp looked , n one moment of silence - n everyone started laughing crap . LOL . its lyk so damn funny lah ? im even laughing lyk a mad woman now alr =.= n shafiq copied my laugh la . shyt you T.T
ahh . den was lit . free period man ! shiokkk xD slacked n chatted with benny n jacob :D
n chem . shyt ? i only scored 28 ? zz . shytttttttt . T.T nvm . i shall buck up for sa1 (: n i shall top chem ! LOL . :X n chi i only jus passed ? shyt man . kui wo hai shi hcl de . omgggg . must really buck up liaos . T.T
after school went to eat pizza with jiawei mei , rongyong laoba n shuting . had fun ^^ chatted alot :D den i pei laoba took bus to her hse . den from her hse to bowen . n from bowen to my hse . wow . i seriously nth to do :DD wahaahhahas . but i love my xing gan laoba x33 ! its worth it :D

n new CHENSHIWEI song !! ahhhh . i love him so much x3333 ! i noe shuting does too :DD
i cnt find the lyrics for this song T.T but nvm , i love it so much so i just put lor . ENJOY :DD !

heyheys :D

ystd i went to watch KUNGFU DUNK with jiajia . finally cn see my jaychou x333 OMG . JAYCHOU IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! x33333 n he's HOTTTTT when he scores a goal x3333 ! omg . im so in love with my laogong x33333333 !!
those hu haven watch kungfu dunk pls go watch now ! cos its totally worth the monehh ^^
den ystd oso bought a grey cardi n spongebob tee with jiajia :D loves laa xD

tdy lyk nth happen luhhs . boring old school day . cept for somethings xD
e3 very quiet lehhhh . so little boys lor . if only dere were mor boys T.T so e3 boys , must buck up ! make the class mor lively ! so e3 c be noisier :DD n classtee design is very cuteee x3 im gonna love it ~
oh yea . i first time see a guy stand in front of the class telling the class things lyk class tee lehhhh :OO omg siaa ! jason wor ~ nt bad sia :D got leadership ! normally this kind of stuff is girls do one lor . nt bad . omg . really first time . im astonished :OO

so long :D

洋葱

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群

盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑 最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就像一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

this song is recommended by jiajia .
superbb song . i love it (:
it reminds me of the process through these 7 months , n i felt , lyk i've returned to 7 months ago .

遺落

你沉默低下了頭
倔強地 抹去了含在眼角的淚光
我傻傻望着窗外
來來往往的人緊握着 一只喝空的杯

是真的不懂得心疼真的不懂愛嗎
爲什麽我始終學不會
不要讓你心碎 不要讓你流淚

明天你將離我有多遠
對你始終不曾說再見
被遺忘的預言在記憶裏擱淺
我在默默的思念
是我漫不經心的燃燒
你的付出熱情和驕傲
你對我有多好我愛你有多少
我被遺落的心只有你知道

時間已停止流動
我的心遺落在你我錯身的瞬間
我擡頭望着天空明明滅滅的星從今后
就將要各自飛

是真的不再有牽挂真的結束了嗎
你知道我始終放不下
始終不能面對
你不再是我的寶貝

明天你將離我有多遠
對你始終不曾說再見
被遺忘的預言在記憶裏擱淺
我在默默的思念
是我漫不經心的燃燒
你的付出熱情和驕傲

你對我有多好我愛你有多少
我被遺落的心只有你知道

darren tan's new album is out !
i super love him n this song x3

tmr is valentines day .
another single n lonely valentines day . every year its been lyk this . pathetic ? yes , i would say . its always me lyking another guy . n not getting the same feelings back . always suffering in silence . wads the use of giving your all for a guy when he just doesnt lyk you at all ? 7 months alr . n i still cnt forget . how stupid am i . he doesnt even lyk me can . so why am i kip wasting my emotions on him ? i shld just forget him . but i cnt . fk lah .
after tmr . everything is gonna change . if i cnt forget him , it looks lyk i have to use force . its just no use . its painful when you still lyk someone but you cnt present it . cos you dun want him to noe you still lyk him . im lyk squeeze in between lah . wth .
im just gonna stay single minded alr . i dun want to lyk anyone anymor . i have alr lost hope in love . lonely valentines ? i dun give a damn any longer .

OUCH LAA .
i wan cry alr T.T
y everyone pierce earhole boh taiji one .
my one den so many taiji ?!
shyt can . zzz .

its been freaking painful over chinese new yr .
luckily tdy went sch , jiamin made a big fuss of it , den make me damn scared so i went to see the person >.> HENG LA ! the person say if few mor days i nv go see her . den gg alr lohs . the whole thing is gonna go inside my ear =.=! heng heng heng . i owe it all to jiamin . thanks man mei T.T the person take out tt time , my ear dere alr got the heart shape mark on it lah , according to philly ): n its bloody dere O.O gt blood in the hole ! D: den the hole is lyk damn big can ? omigosh ><
now put earstickk . transparent one . n its less bloody now T.T ahhhh . hope tmr go sch no mor bloody liao . or it will scare the life out of ppl D: n the stick is lyk damn lose ? its sliding out of my earhole . goshhhhh . i dun wan such a big earhole . god damn DD:

HAIS . n must thank the ppl tt accompanied me go , philly jia n ry laoba (: loves you 2 x33 bought philly's valentines day present tdy . buying the other's ones tmr or wed bahs .

i hope my ear's gonna be okay soon D: i badly want to put nice nice earrings laa . ):

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR :DDDD

ahh . the happiest festival of the yr is here ! xDD angbaos come come :DD

oh yea .
HAPPY BELATED BRITHDAY TO SHOOTING !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO TASHY !
:DD
love yah guys x3

off to bai nian ler . cyah guys ! x33

yoooo .

right . tdy had a rehearsal for the dance for ms tan's singing tmr :D was veryyy funnn . but im very nervous for tmr T.T chose my clothes ler . but i dun think i will look good D: fat lah me . ): just now was teaching isaac n shafiq how to dance xD they're nice guys okay . all the guys nv join only they joined . got courage laa ! :D so dun laugh at them alrite (: n dun laugh at me oso =.= i noe my dancing sucks . so RETRO DANCE ! HERE WE COME :DDD
jiayoujiayou ! x3
good lucks to me , n the ppl tt r dancing with me ! <3

& i must be happy (:
emoing .

迷路兵-我为什么还爱你

一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心丢我在 这里

一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心丢我在 这里

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你(想着你)
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃是什么原因
你狠心丢我在 这里

heyyyys . (:

yupp . i peirced earholes ystd :D im so happy laa . finally . after 15 yrs of waiting o.o xD i finally cn wear earrings :DD lalala ~ damn happy .

tdy . went to buy clothes for cny . cos tt day didnt buy finish :X i lyk my 3/4 crown jeans man . fanstastic . i love it :DD but 2 tees is quite tight sia . shyt , i really nid to diet ler . im so fatttttttttt . == n bought another dress . i think its quite nice except its kinda big n makes me look fat too -.- i lyk my shoes ! cos i find anymor shoes anywhr so i just bought one white one :D its cute laa . xD i think the pants r the best <3
n jiajia is my best frend x3333 !

off to audi ! :D
byeeeeeeeeee .